Confessional

The point of a blog, if not the characteristic that makes the good ones really special, is when bloggers feel truly free to write from their heart and aren't compelled to self-censor themselves or hold anything back. On that front, I haven't been the most open of bloggers of late, as there's been a fairly major change in my life that I haven't had the stomach or inclination to deal with here.

A few weeks ago, I made the difficult decision to pull the plug on my long-term relationship with my girlfriend. As is always the case with these things, the reasons are complicated and difficult to understand -- even to me. And even though I was the one who initiated it, it's still the most difficult thing I've ever had to do in my life. Typically, writing is a cathartic process for me whenever I undergo times of stress and difficulty, so one might imagine I'd take advantage or an outlet such as this one to sort through my thoughts. But in this instance, I don't really feel comfortable pouring my heart out on this subject, as this doesn't really seem like the ideal medium to do it in. Nor did the breakup have anything to do with money, for that matter.

Still, I felt like I owed it to myself, and my few readers, to come clean here. By ignoring the elephant in the room and prattling on about my personal finances, I just feel like I'm being dishonest somehow. And my posts of late, I think, have tended towards the superficial as a result.

So there you have it. I'm basically going through as close to a divorce as you can (without ever actually getting married, that is) and while it's as amicable as these things can be, it's safe to say this is a major life change for yours truly. Maybe I'll feel like hashing out my thoughts here some day, but that day's not here yet. In the meantime, expect numerous posts on how expensive this process is turning out to be. Even after we've finished splitting all our stuff and finding new places to live, I'd forgotten how expensive single life can be.

I hope you understand.